October 16, 2024

October 16, 2024
6:36 AM

SHUFFLE PLAY: SOLACEMENT, SOLIPSISM, SUDDEN DEPRESSION, AND ADMIRING THE MOON

I woke up today hearing the radio of our neighbors.
They were playing Christmas songs.
I felt nostalgic. But my playlist was overpowered by this loud music.
It was as if I have this second floor conundrum. It was a battle between my peaceful music and their loud Christmas music.

Sometimes I am tired of filling this room with music
to muffle loud and foreign voices of my
sometimes inconsiderate, insensitive, borderline obnoxious neighbors.
I am tired of getting deaf from loud thoughts
to muffle the loud and foreign voices
conjured by my inconsiderate, insensitive, borderline obnoxious head
from the second floor,
from finding excuses,
to instinctively understanding that this is no longer a phase
I need a shuffle play

and then all of a sudden our playlist came along
it played the song Everything has Changed

And then as if it all went better now. 

Today was a wreck though. 

Another day where I thought everything will be fine. But you were there. You were always there. 

I asked you tonight if the moon was beautiful, wasn’t it? And you said yes. 

You fool. Do you even know what it means?

Well, you shall figure it out soon enough. May the universe keep sending you then, my dearest Maxene.